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Time for Some Fresh Fucks in 2014

Time for Some Fresh Fucks in 2014

Around this time of year, I review my top fucks for 2013 and head toward 2014. But not this year.

While 2013 did contain some good ass worth recalling (like Chris the escort who seems to be all over the place these days, a hot Indy bottom, a Baltimore hottie, along with one or two others), it was not a banner year for me and breeding.

In fact, I’d consider myself a bit off my game.

All totaled up for 2013, I made 213 deposits, 31 stealths and actually took 11 in my own ass.

Yes, I’ve been bottoming.

A top must never be complacent in his skill set. Being open to the possibilities is a must. Normally these topping sessions occur in conjunction with a massage session, where a therapist takes the time to relax me and allow me to open up, so to speak.

But a couple of times, it’s just been a beautiful cock and I really didn’t feel like sucking it until it came. And it seemed like such a waste to let it go someplace else when I had a perfectly good ass I could back up to the gloryhole.

Into 2014

Like 2013, I will be traveling extensively and hoping for new asses to breed. Don’t worry, I’m not going bottom on anyone. But I’ll probably supplement my load counts with loads in my ass with the truly versatiles out there — not that there are many available.

I’d like to see my numbers grow this year, although let’s face it — I’m no spring chicken. At 46, a lot of the younger bucks run away and the old farts (like me) are chasing young bucks.

What’s your #LoadCount? Tweet me st @iblastinside or comment here.

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Plan T: Make Truvada Available OTC

Plan T: Make Truvada Available OTC

Getting barebacking recognized as a legitimate option in sexual relations will not happen as an issue by itself. Despite the studies that have appeared showing at least half of all gay men bareback just doesn’t capture the attention of those who live in that state of denial where safe sex is hot sex Opens new window of a page on this blog.

I wrote recently some ideas that need to be developed to reduce the chance of HIV transmission in barebacking Opens new window of a page on this blog.

Most of them do not exist but one does — sort of. That’s Truvada Open-New-Window-External. It’s a cocktail antiviral that’s been shown effective as an anti-HIV prophylactic — meaning that men in “high risk categories” take the drug and it essentially prevents the body from contracting HIV.

But tests also show that taking Truvada in the week following possible exposure to HIV also prevents contracting the virus permanently.

It’s like Plan B Open-New-Window-External for gays.

I think we should call it Plan T, for two reasons:

1. “T” for Truvada (or its generic name, Tenofovir)

2. And the whole idea is to protect all the “T” cells.

If we, as a barebacking community, needed a rally cry, I think we might have found it. It’s captured some attention on Twitter. Even Paul Morris of Treasure Island Media agrees with this.

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Fighting Doctors and Pharmaceutical Companies

Paul is right that doctors would fight it, but I think the greater fight would come from the drug companies. Just think of this: Have you heard of many cures of lately? Is there a cure for cancer? A cure for anything?

I have this fungus on my chest, right between my pecs. I’ve now had it for more than 10 years. Seems like I should be able to get rid of it. But every six months or so, it flares back up. It’s just this red, splotchy thing that comes out of no where and thrives due to — of all things — water. I put the designated medicine on it and it goes away. And for months after it disappears, I keep applying it. But it lies dormant until I stop applying the medicine then it comes back out of its hiding.

I believe that this is the ultimate plan of the drug companies. They are not out to create cures. They’re out to create treatments.

Gilead Sciences, who make Truvada, must be shown that it would benefit from a lot more men taking the short-term Plan T than waiting for men to go onto the long-term HIV-Positive treatment with Truvada or one of the other cocktail options. Once Gilead crunches those numbers and sees the cost analysis benefit,I think they’ll start pushing for over-the-counter dispensing of Plan T as an option.

But if the cost analysis doesn’t go Plan T’s way, Gilead will oppose it.

Worth a Shot

I still think it’s worth a shot. It’s time barebacking had an issue that wasn’t just about sexual freedom. And this one may be it.

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What’s Your 2012 Load Count?

What’s Your 2012 Load Count?

2012 is coming to an end. How did you end the year? With lots of cum in ass or blasting your DNA inside? Or did your barebacking keep under wraps, so to speak?

Polling Your Pole and Your Hole

For Bottoms (or Versatiles): How many loads do you estimate you took from different men in 2012?

  • I abstained in 2012 (or I'm a top) (17%, 40 Votes)
  • Between one and five (I'm a little picky) (16%, 39 Votes)
  • 21 to 50 juicy ones (I'm a slut, I know) (15%, 35 Votes)
  • 10 to 20 loads (at least one a month) (14%, 33 Votes)
  • Just one (a slow year or my ass if for one man) (11%, 26 Votes)
  • More than 250 (all cummers, always welcome) (9%, 22 Votes)
  • Between six and 10 (gotta be a nice cock) (8%, 19 Votes)
  • 101 to 250 bred my ass (I live for the loads) (6%, 15 Votes)
  • 51 to 100 jizz jets (two a week for this cum hound) (5%, 11 Votes)

Total Voters: 240

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For Bottoms who took more than 250 loads, what's your estimate for 2012?

  • 251 to 365 (about one a day on average) (32%, 8 Votes)
  • More than 3,001 (e-mail me please!!!) (28%, 7 Votes)
  • 366 to 750 (about two a day on average) (16%, 4 Votes)
  • 751 to 1,500 (damn boy, that ass is used!) (16%, 4 Votes)
  • 1,501 to 3,000 (now that's a super slut!!) (8%, 2 Votes)

Total Voters: 25

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For Tops (or Switch Hitters): How many different asses did you breed in 2012?

  • Between two and 10 (call it a monthly sampler) (30%, 44 Votes)
  • Just one (my cum is for one ass only) (17%, 25 Votes)
  • None (saving it up or I'm a bottom) (16%, 24 Votes)
  • Between 11 and 25 (two asses, twice a month) (12%, 17 Votes)
  • 51 to 100 (lots of places to plant) (8%, 11 Votes)
  • More than 201 (I fuck all holes) (8%, 11 Votes)
  • 26 to 50 (my seed needs a place to land) (6%, 9 Votes)
  • 101 to 200 (fertilizing the fields of plenty) (3%, 5 Votes)

Total Voters: 146

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Previous Questions and Answers

Here’s some previous poll questions. If you see responses, you’ve already answered them (so thanks!). If not, feel free to go ahead. It just gives me an idea about who reads my blog…

Do you bareback?

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Gloryhole Etiquette

Gloryhole Etiquette

What is a Gloryhole?

A gloryhole Open-New-Window-External is a opening or hole in a wall, partition or divider about waist high so that a man can pass his cock through from one side to the other so that another man on the other side may service his cock orally (blowjob), anally (fuck) or manually (handjob). Gloryholes are most often associated with blowjobs or oral servicing.

The gloryhole allows for an anonymous sexual experience where the blowjob giver (or bottom) cannot see anything but the cock of the blowjob receiver (or top) and the blowjob receiver just feels the oral attentions of whoever happens to be on the other side of the partition.

Gloryhole in a public restroomGloryholes are most often found at adult bookstores and sex clubs, but can occasionally be carved out at certain public restrooms (also known as tearooms), rest stops (or cottages in the UK and Europe) or even in some people’s homes.

Public and semi-public locations are considered AYOR or at your own risk Open-New-Window-External, where one might be caught by those not into such activity or, worse, law enforcement. Once must be incredibly careful and focused on one’s surroundings in an AYOR location.

Is there really an Etiquette to Gloryholes?

My short answer is yes.

In general, one needs to understand the subtle movements of each party to begin to comprehend the unspoken language of the sexual encounter that may (or may not) occur. Expectations should also be fulfilled and getting them satisfied might be also an effort.

If you’re sticking your cock through a hole and the cocksucker on the other side suddenly stops, you might wonder why or, on the other hand, a cocksucker could be fellating away when the cock suddenly withdraws.

If it happens once, you can attribute that to the fickleness of the person on the other side. But if a pattern develops, you might want to consider something’s up. The problem might be you.

This guide provides a standard approach to giving and receiving, sucking and fucking as well as all the signals and indications.

The Different Gloryholes

Yes, there are different kinds of gloryholes to choose from. In these cases, one must be aware of your choices and act appropriately.

Bookstore or Sex Club Carved Gloryhole

These are your top-of-the-line choices, sometimes even including handholds for the guy who’s putting his cock through and a stool or seat for the man who’s sucking or servicing cock. I’ve even heard of places where the gloryhole is more of an ass-shaped opening with a slight, cushioned ledge for the bottom to rest his ass comfortably (I’ve never seen such).

Ideal shape of a gloryholeThe best provide for different height options, so the openings are more elongated, as illustrated. This allows for a man who’s 6-foot-3 or 5-foot-4 to stick his cock through without straining his back.

Generally, these gloryholes have been professionally cut and the edges smoothed so that no splinters or other issues are in the way. Often, duct-tape may be taken to line the edges to assure nonesuch issues will get in the way of thrusts around the sensitive groin areas.

The thickness of the partition should be about a quarter inch.

platform-gloryholesSome sex clubs will create a location where the top men step up onto a platform and the bottom or servicer can stand upright as well (see illustration). This is a convenience but it does not provide for anal options in sex through a gloryhole.

AYOR Gloryholes

Found in bathrooms usually in older malls and store rest rooms, rest stops, truck stops, colleges and universities and other places, these gloryholes are patiently and lovingly created by the perverts who frequent the cruisy location and are tired of bending over and serving under the bathroom stall partition. Because these partitions are normally metal, these gloryholes can include sharp edges, so being extremely careful with your cock is paramount.

Cuts can occur when a new visitor to the bathroom opens the door and you have to jerk your cock back and resume the sitting position as if you’re taking a shit. That’s why duct, fabric or masking tape is a friend and should be used along the edges. If not available at the time, keep a hand (or two) cupped around the hole for an easy withdrawal.

Private, In-Home Gloryholes

These are appearing more and more frequently as AYOR holes disappear and people are reluctant to pay entry fees or drive long distances to adult bookstores or sex clubs. You can see invitations to gloryholes online at Craigslist.org. Just look at the Personals sections of Casual Encounters or Men Seeking Men.

I prefer to clarify a few things about the gloryhole setup, as to what it’s like.

Generally, the best situation has a private entrance.

Sheet, tarp or shower curtain with cut hole: This is the cheap or quickest gloryhole option. Sometimes this can be fun but generally I prefer a more solid partition.

A Bed GloryholeBed gloryhole: I’ve actually experienced this a couple of times (see the photo). It can be fun.

Doorway gloryhole: The best potential setup, of course. But it’s best not to use a real door because it can be too thick.

Suggestions for Oral Servicing

1. Pace yourself

If you’re oral only, don’t exhaust yourself in the first two minutes. I expect it will take me at least five solid minutes of oral before popping off.

2. Minimal hands

If you must use your hands, do not use them in exclusion of your mouth. Combine the two. If I wanted a handjob, I would have done it myself.

3. No teeth

I think it should go without saying but, fuck, I still get a good scraping. Last month, someone actually scratched me near the head on the left side of my cock.

4. Take a hint

If we’re pulling away, you need to start doing your best or we’re leaving. Even if you do your best, it may not be good enough for what each cock needs (more on that in a minute). So don’t go grabbing after it. Just cause you didn’t get a load doesn’t mean we didn’t enjoy ourselves.

5. Sometimes we will be back

Occasionally we will sample the room of cocksuckers and then return to the best. It’s rare for me to know I’ve found the best, especially if I’m hoping for a little ass. And I can count on one hand the number of times I know a blowjob is going to do the job of an assfucking.

6. I don’t want to hear you spit

Even if you are going to spit, I want to believe you swallowed. So please, the whole places doesn’t need to hear you attempt to scrape your lungs and throat with mucus to remove every little element of my sperm. My swimmers deserve a death in your stomach or ass, so please, make their euthanasia silent for me.

Now for some of the motions I make (or I think a lot of tops make) to help you understand what we mean…

Three-way gloryholes can be fun too

      

 

Gestures and Their Meaning

1. Hand at the gloryhole.

Gesture by the oral servicer or the bottom.
Please put your cock through this gloryhole so I might give your cock pleasure.

2. Cock through the gloryhole.

Gesture by the top or the servicee.
Please suck my cock.

3. Elbow or palm of hand blocking a gloryhole.

Gesture by either party.
I am not interested in servicing you or being serviced by you. This is unlikely to change throughout the time you’re visiting at the gloryhole location.

4. Face at a gloryhole (usually with mouth open and tongue out).

Gesture by the oral servicer.
Please fuck my face.

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5. Two men shaking their cocks at one another on either side.

Gesture usually by two men desiring to be oral servicees.
If one is versatile, the polite thing to do is to kneel and start sucking. Usually the older, less good looking or the less hung should be doing the sucking.

6. The suckee receives for a while; the servicer pauses with a push away or a couple of light taps on the cock (kind of like a tap on the shoulder).

This usually occurs when the other party wants to get sucked too or wants to discuss meeting together in the same booth. By the way, it’s okay to decline meeting in the same booth. For the gloryhole experience, part of the fun is the whole gloryhole anonymous thing, even though you can see them through the hole.

7. The suckee receives for a while, a pause comes and there’s a slap on the cock.

This usually means the asshole cocksucker is leaving. It’s also an indicator of a couple of more things that I regret to inform you.

(1.) You have disappointed the cocksucker with your size. Cocksuckers like to be challenged and, if yours just doesn’t snake far enough down their throat, then fuck off. Or,
(2.) the cocksucker thinks he’s so damn good that you should have shot your load by now and he’s done sucking you.

8. The suckee receives for a while, up to hardness and a little beyond; then the cocksucker stops and there’s a firm grip on the receiver’s cock and a pause…

We’ll address fucking through a gloryhole in a moment in another section, but that is indeed is what’s about to happen. That firm grip means two things:

(1.) Positioning your cock to line it up for the ass; or,
(2.) Positioning your cock for a rubber.

9. The sucker is giving a blowjob and the cock begins to move in a fucking motion.

sucking through a gloryholeThe top either wants to…

(1.) fuck your mouth; or,
(2.) fuck your ass.

The latter is more likely, at least when I make the motion.  If fucking your ass is an option, get to it. The most important part now to to vary what you’re doing.

If you won’t go to the ass, don’t be surprised if number 10 ends up happening. With your mouth, go down deeper on his cock, work the whole shaft and see if you can take a whole mouth fucking. That said, if he’s a top like me, he wants to unload in an ass and a mouth just isn’t enough

10. The suckee begins to pull out slowly.

The sucker is not earning his keep. The top is getting bored with the sucking and is considering moving on but has given you another opportunity to redouble effort and prove the blowjob giver is the one he should let suck you off.

11. The suckee all of a sudden pulls out or jerks away.

One of two things:

(1.) The bottom used teeth. Don’t do that.
(2.) The top is too close to coming and he’s not quite ready for it.

Either way, take it slow if you get the cock back in hand, be gentle and kind.

12. The top’s balls are shaved.

I believe if a top shaves his balls or he makes the point of getting them through the gloryhole, there’s a task for the bottom and that’s to lick, lick and lick some more. Access might be tough, but still, it’s an invitation to lick away.

Now, there are many other possibilities. I will often step away and look into the hole. If, on the other side, I see a naked guy, I might give him a little more time to get up the courage to do what I hope he will do. Otherwise, I’ll move on.

      

Fucking Through a Gloryhole

bareback fucking through a gloryholeThe ultimate experience has got to be fucking though a gloyhole and, of course, I would approve of that bareback. If you are at all concerned about fucking barebacking, be aware that this is a potential experience when you put your cock through a hole. I have found that about 20 percent of the time (or one out of five fucks) you will luck up with a gloryhole fuck. Hints that this will happen can usually be told if you see the servicer is completely naked, but that is not always the case.

If the bottom chooses to use a condom, the sensation I’m most familiar with is what I’ll call the pinch. It’s how some inexperienced people will usually put a condom on someone else, by pinching the tip to remove air but leave an empty reservoir for cum later. Generally, the applier will catch the tip of the cock as well and it can, well, pinch a little. It doesn’t hurt as much as it’s uncomfortable.

Following that process is the roll, where the condom is rolled down the shaft. Again, this sensation doesn’t feel ideal but usually the sense is the sudden dulling of sensation.

At this point, you’ll usually hear the pop, as the bottom opens a bottle of lube and begins applying it liberally on your plastic sheathed cock and on his ass.

Finally, there’s the base death grip,  which guides the cock into the hole.

Generally, whether bareback or covered, allowing the bottom to back up on your cock is a good idea. Then, once he leans back onto the gloryhole, it’s the top’s queue to fuck away. The top usually moves for this while the bottom stays stationary.

As for bareback fucking, I find the bottoms are more prepared, usually well lubed and ready to just back up. They usually go from sucking to the base death grip.

It goes without saying that, if you’re going to be fucked, please clean out well before arriving and, well, monitor your cleanliness. If I catch the scent of shit, I will leave quick without the polite “thank you” tap on the ass.

I have removed a condom while fucking and he knew it. If you’re a bottom and you want the condom on the top, pay attention.

As for how long it should last, well, there’s the polite way. If the ass is good, I will fuck it until I cum. Once I cum, I tap a nice “thank you” and zip up and leave. If I’m not ready to cum, I still tap a “thank you.” If there’s a problem with the ass, I simply leave. Nothing polite about it. I hope the rudeness sends a message to the ass he needs to check on things.

 

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Dark Passengers Series

Dark Passenger: Like a Virgin

My incredibly clear recollections of him and how he started the molestation end somewhere in a blur, as I wrote. I cannot count how many times it happened, but flashes of memories showing this place and that place — a bathroom, the woods, a basement, the shed. I smell the musty mix of his balls and his pipe, but I never really remember his face. I just see his cock, hard and huge, hanging there relaxed and in front of my face as I knelt down to suck it.

The post-ejaculation depression always brought on the verbal abuse of my descent into hell along with the crippling guilt. I can still feel that guilt, deep in my guts, but it’s a pin-prick compared to the all-consuming self-loathing that filled my hours after succumbing to my lust.

What happens next surprised even me and helped set my course toward some form of normalcy.

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I met Vince as a freshman in high school. Tall and lanky like myself with the same bowl haircut, similar struggles with zits. But his extroverted, I-don’t-give-a-fuck personality proved to be the yang to my yin. We ran track together, something I attempted to fit into the normalcy of high school. We both sucked and our consistent position in the back of the pack led us to strike up a friendship.

Of course, beginning to feel close to someone led me to other feeling, especially since he was indeed a real male. He even had some chest hair to prove it.

As school kinds would, our conversations eventually turned to sex — and liking “girls.” He tried very hard to pin me down on who I liked. We would play a 20 questions like game where I thought I could be at least a little honest. The last conversation of this collection would be the one I can recall to this day.

I’d hinted that “she” rides his bus. He began naming girls, to each I’d respond, “No.” Then, at some point, he tried to determined whether “she” disembarked before or after him. Of course, I was in a corner because “she” got off the bus at the same stop as him.

There was a long pause.

“Is it me?” he asked.

“What?” I stammered. I could feel my heart beating in my ears. My stomach lurched forward. I thought I was going to throw up.

“Do you like me?” he asked.

I couldn’t answer. My eyes blurred with tears and fear gripped me. I couldn’t find an answer.

“Are you telling me you’re gay?”

That word. Oh that word. That I could answer, “No. I don’t think so.” But then I needed to say something. “Maybe I’m bi, but I don’t know.”

“But you like me?” he persisted.

The word, “Yes” popped out of my mouth before I could swallow it.

From somewhere downstairs, my mom began calling me for dinner. At that moment. Now? Really mom? The calls became more persistent.

“COMING!” I yelled. “Listen, I got to go. My mom is calling me.”

“Cool,” he said. “You know what I’m going to do?”

“No, what?” I said, thinking that he’d actually begin calling what few friends I had to tell them I was a “homo.”

“I’m going to jerk off,” he responded.

I lost my voice again.

“I think it’s really hot you’re into me,” he said. “And I got a stiffy to prove it. Let’s talk later.”

Click.

We did talk later. And often. Vince was actually the first guy with whom I ever had phone sex. I would talk about what the girls would do to him and he would hump his bed on the other end of the line. And he’d try to give me some fantasy about men, but it wasn’t a fulfilling as listening to his voice.

At some point, though, I told Vince about the man next door. I don’t recall how it came up or what really transpired. But for all of my fucked-up sense of who I was and my after-life destination, Vince turned out to be the catalyst to turn it all around.

“Dude, you’ve got to stop it and report him to the police,” Vince said.

“But Vince, people would then find out and everybody would think I was a fag!”

“Yea, you’re right,” he said. “But maybe there’s something else we can do.”

Our discussions regarding what to do about him were few since we focused mostly on our own libidos. Our relationship grew over the phone, but physically meeting and actually touching never happened much, until one summer afternoon when Vince called me and invited me over for a sleepover.

I don’t think my cock ever deflated throughout that day and early evening until we were able to finally retire to the basement.

Despite what the man took from me, I count Vince as my first. And technically, he was.

During the evening and early morning, Vince got off seven times. I shot three. Vince was a machine. His cock — similar in size, girth and hardness to mine — never went soft. Oh, and it pointed at his hairy belly button, just like mine. So I wasn’t deformed.

I sucked Vince off twice and licked his balls while he jerked off. At this point, I’d avoided cumming for fear of the painful results that would happen with such a release. Then, Vince requested the act I was probably most curious about.

“You want to fuck me?” he asked. Vince, being as “straight” as he was, refused to suck me. He would touch my cock, but only for short periods. It weirded him out. But he could endure my mouth and hand. Somehow, in his world, sticking my cock into his ass wasn’t as invasive as his mouth.

We found suntan lotion as lube and I rolled on top of him. He felt the usual pain, but for us, it was a new sensation. I pulled out as soon as I’d entered, from the awkward position of two lanky teenage boys, one lying on top of the other.

The next attempt proved more successful and Vince accepted me. If you’ve ever heard of the old show, “Love American Style,” the sex act was always represented by fireworks. Well, my memory of those few moments is so closely related. I saw fireworks, only that the sky was completely filled with these hot colors and none of the black could be seen. Dizzy and hopeful, my hard cock plunged into his virgin hole. I don’t know if we fucked for one minute or twenty. I lost all track of time and place. The pleasure overwhelmed all my senses. Even shooting my load deep into the bowels of this straight boy left me spent but incredibly dazed. I rolled off, smelling a mixture of cocoa butter, shit and our sweat.

“My turn!” Vince said.

Soon he was on top of me in the same awkward position and shoving his cock into my bare hole.

Where the man failed, Vince succeeded. His cock went in. The explosive joy and pleasure I’d experienced just moments before were replaced by sharp, gut-wrenching pain. I could only see red spikes and I begged for Vince to take it out, let it end.

“Just a minute more!” His breath was hot on my neck and he whispered for me to wait just a little bit longer.

He shot in my ass, but I didn’t care. I just wanted him off me. I wanted it to end.

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That night turned out to be a little much for us both. Vince and I never really reconnected and, when school started back up, he avoided me as much as possible. However, Vince did do more for me than he will ever really know.

Truth is, I wanted to share that with Vince. With the 20-year high school reunion upon us, I watched for Vince to RSVP to the online tool and update his profile. Then one day, I logged on to find Vince missing from the roster completely. I sent the organizer a note.

Her e-mail response was abrupt.

“Oh, we moved him to the ‘in memoriam’ section,” she wrote. “He was killed while serving in the Navy shortly after high school. I think it was a car accident.”

I could never share with Vince how his little tryst with me started me on a path of self-worth, where I could value myself and actually enjoy the sex acts I knew I lusted after. In my universe, Vince would never grow old. He would always be the 15-year-old boy who opened me up to the potential.

 

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