Q. When did you decide to go raw?
A. My first fucks were raw (and were in the early 1980s). Throughout my sexual history, I always fucked raw, both within relationships and through occasional “slip ups” while single. I never liked condoms. Does anyone really?
As I left one relationship and the whole condom thing started up again, I really started to hate them. Funny thing, I discovered the bottoms really didn’t want them either. Either the men were fucking stupid (which remains a distinct possibility) or they wanted to bareback as well. The “Deceptively Fun” series on my blog got inspired by the men I found more challenging to bareback starting in 2003.
The first few sentences of the series begins: “Don’t know when I stopped caring, but I don’t. It’s all about the fuck. It’s all about feeling good. And I don’t fucking care any other way.” (You can read the first entry at http://iblastinside.blogspot.com/2009/09/deceptively-fun-1.html.)
At the time, that statement proved accurate. From mid- to late 2003, my longest long-term relationship had ended (fucker). He actually was dating two guys (he had a polyamorous thing going before ending it with me), a week later I was laid off, and a week after that, I was in a car accident. So I’d had some fucking shit go down in my life.
The last thing I needed was a layer of plastic between me and the man I fucked.
Beyond that, I’d trusted all the bullshit about monogamy — not because I wanted it. My ex had begged for it. He’d never cheat on me. Honest-Injun. The things we do for love.
That relationship’s ending proved to be pivotal to me and while we did make another attempt, I never really gave it another go. I did, however, learn that life occurs only once. I’d given an asshole the best years of my life — 28 to 36 — and I’d never get those prime fucking years back. Future fucking would be for my pleasure.
I stretched my bareback wings and from there, I’ve never really looked back. My slip-ups now occasionally mean I use a condom. If I ever use one, I will find a way to get it off and breed.